Mayhem

I am a senior. I am a senior that has gone through 4 years of college trying to figure out who I am and what I am going to do after I graduate.

I thought that I had it all planned out. I thought that I would know exactly where I was going and that I would have secured a job that had benefits, great pay, amazing experiences in a field that I love.

I thought wrong.

This. Is. Mayhem.

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Let me start off by introducing myself. My name is Monasia. I am originally from Long Island, NY and I currently attend a small school called High Point University in High Point, NC. I stumbled across my passion through my Human Communication class with Professor Jim Scott. He told me that my voice was different, it had that raspy and that ugly sounding voice that made people listen. A commanding voice that can hold a room.

I then did a couple of voiceovers for graduate students and non-profit organizations, started being a co-host on one of my university's radio stations, moved to having my own show Do Tell on campus. I have done many internships and jobs that I would have believed to prepare me to be very much qualified for any position in my field. I have done a concert event internship with my school, had a job raising money for my university, interned at Andreadis Talent Agency in New York City, interned at 102 JAMZ in North Carolina, and interned at Emmis Communication which is the company over HOT 97, WBLS, and WLIB. During the time that I was at Emmis I also worked under the Rev. Al Sharpton Show organizing and managing listeners' calls. Once I finished my internship at Emmis Communication and came back to North Carolina I was offered a position as a part-time on-air personality at 102 JAMZ and also morning show producer during my senior year of college. I also am the co-founder and one of the executive producers of Point Blank, which is an entertainment news talk show that is broadcasted to YouTube.

You would think that with all of this experience I would be straight. Well that is not the case at all. I am stressing out because of the financial responsibilities I am going to have once I graduate. I don't have a job lined up, and I do not want to just take a job that I will not enjoy and dread going to every day. In my eyes that is just a waste of time. I have had several break downs, calls to my mother crying and questioning my path and my career choice. When things do not go as planned everything that you have ever done becomes questionable. I am believing that everything happens for a reason and that my time is coming where I will be presented with a job offer that I can not resist. But this waiting game and being patient is something that I am not used to.